[Magdalen] damned sarc

[Jon Egger]

My friends,
This thing called "Sarcoidosis:  The Thing That Kills You Slowly," has
taken more from me in the past two weeks.  Pain meds that have worked
wonders for me are now doing nothing for this pain. My vision is getting
worse, my spelling is worse, and my shortness of breath is worse. I have
trouble holding things and dropping said things, and the only thing I can
do is vent about it.

My nurse, who is very good, was sad last Friday when I told her that my
prayer, every night, is that God take me while I sleep.  When I saw Annie
and Ben last week (Pizza and Documentaries) I told them I want to live to
see a grandson! They want a boy and have already have a name for him:
Joseph Zephaniah Afton,  Joe after my dad and Zephaniah because it's
Annie's favorite Book of the Bible.

Thank you for letting me vent. Naively, and with 30 years of nursing under
my belt, I hadn't realized how how difficult it is to die. I'm reminded of
our first lecture in Nursing 101, delivered by Mrs. Audrey Fay: "Whether
you graduate and get a nursing license, or wash out for whatever reason,
you will learn three things: Life isn't fair, life isn't easy, and people
die."
Grace and peace,
jon