[Magdalen] pain

[Susan Hagen]

So very hard Jon. Please vent all you want and let us hold you up as well
as we can.
Susan

On Thu, Aug 27, 2015 at 4:32 PM, Jon Egger <revegger at gmail.com> wrote:

> Despite being mobile, my pain levels are raging ever higher, the doc has
> increased my slow release morphine to 75mg every twelve hours. He has also
> increased the vicodin.
>
> The two hospice RNs who care for me have begin mentioning 'nursing
> facility' and 'hospice care facility' to me.  My non-response has been
> noted.
>
> Pain getting worse, more narcotics, pain meds,  and talk of hospice have
> left me crestfallen today. There are no words to describe how sad and
> scared I am.  During the spring of 2013 a parishioner asked me to pray for
> myself and my healing.  I thought for a long time and replied, "Sister,
> I've seen my x-rays...God can't fix those lungs." Such praying (for
> yourself) seems so self-centered, so full of hubris, and terribly selfish.
>
> Thanks for letting me vent. Peace, baseball, and Netflix will be my
> companion until Dawn gets off work at 830 tonight.
>
> Grace and peace,
> brud
>



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