[Magdalen] pain

[Esther Williamson]

As Ann said "all manner of things shall be well". Increasing my level of 
prayers for you, Jon.

Esther

On 8/28/2015 6:08 PM, Ann Markle wrote:
> There is healing that is not the same as a cure.  Praying for wholeness,
> whatever form that may take, is not selfish or self-centered.  Healing and
> wholeness contribute to the healing and wholeness of the whole world, and
> are a furthering of God's will for us, even if a physical cure is not
> likely or even possible.  I pray for your release from the bondage of
> fear.  I pray for your release from physical pain, whether that means more
> medication or not.  I love you, Brud.  I do not always respond on-list to
> prayer requests, but you are in my prayers always.  Your decline saddens
> me, but please don't fear.  All will be well and all will be well.  You'll
> see.
>
> Ann
>
> The Rev. Ann Markle
> Buffalo, NY
> ann.markle at aya.yale.edu
> blog:  www.onewildandpreciouslife.typepad.com
>
> On Thu, Aug 27, 2015 at 4:32 PM, Jon Egger <revegger at gmail.com> wrote:
>
>> Despite being mobile, my pain levels are raging ever higher, the doc has
>> increased my slow release morphine to 75mg every twelve hours. He has also
>> increased the vicodin.
>>
>> The two hospice RNs who care for me have begin mentioning 'nursing
>> facility' and 'hospice care facility' to me.  My non-response has been
>> noted.
>>
>> Pain getting worse, more narcotics, pain meds,  and talk of hospice have
>> left me crestfallen today. There are no words to describe how sad and
>> scared I am.  During the spring of 2013 a parishioner asked me to pray for
>> myself and my healing.  I thought for a long time and replied, "Sister,
>> I've seen my x-rays...God can't fix those lungs." Such praying (for
>> yourself) seems so self-centered, so full of hubris, and terribly selfish.
>>
>> Thanks for letting me vent. Peace, baseball, and Netflix will be my
>> companion until Dawn gets off work at 830 tonight.
>>
>> Grace and peace,
>> brud
>>