[Magdalen] depression

[Jon Egger]

I want to thank everyone for their prayers.  I know how I feel when I'm not
depressed, and today is the best day this week.  On a 1-10 scale, today I
feel 8.  Every day prior, for a long time,  I was running on 2-3.5.  Mostly
what I feel now is 'settling'...I'm leveling out and have a wonderful
calmness that I haven't felt in a long time.

When I do get to Heaven, one of the first folk I want to thank is
Maryjane.  We first met at CG03, then at an ordination for permanent
deacons in Chicago. (Steve... I cannot remember his surname.) I last saw
her after plaintiff left me.

When I went to see her before she died, we said goodbye.  Maryjane knew how
to live, and she knew how to die.  She was calm, she was happy, and she
loved her family so much. As I got up to leave, we prayed together, and as
I got to the door of her room,  I turned around, walked to her, and in
tears said, "Maryjane when you get to Heaven please send me a nice
Episcopal girl."  She looked up at me with that smile (which I see every
time I see photos if Meg), patted my hand and said, "Jon, you'll be OK..."
A few months later, I met Dawn.  (Dawn is convinced that her mother and
Maryjane got together to have our paths cross.)

When I retired last night, I opened my Bible app and brought up the NLT
Bible, set it at Psalm 100, put the earphones in, and hit the "start
listening" button.  I fell asleep at Psalm 110.  I have always asked
parishioners to reading the Psalms...every human emotion is in them.

Grace and peace,
jon