[Magdalen] Reunion blues

[Scott Knitter]

Hey, I made a decision about this: not to go. Working on feeling OK about
it (I do, mostly). Fortunately there are a couple of people we could help
with the money we paid; I told the organizers to apply the $ to someone
else's fees, and there were a couple of people (not named to me) who were
having trouble paying. I was actually glad to hear the money could help
somebody go and have a good time. I sort of feel like they're taking our
place. So yay.

Mom said not to feel guilty, so I won't and I don't. Thanks for letting me
air my anxieties here about this. I'll catch up with a couple of
high-school friends later in a smaller gathering (lunch at a favorite place
in East Cupcake).

On Fri, Sep 7, 2018 at 1:40 PM Scott Knitter <scottknitter at gmail.com> wrote:

> 40-year high-school class reunion next Saturday, and it looms like a giant
> chore in my anxious mind. Not so much the reunion itself, but I just don't
> want to use the weekend to make that trip.
>
> Working on "the thoughts that inform the feelings" about this. Mainly,
> it's a big "should want" that isn't really an "I want." But what am I here
> for if it isn't to follow through on doing thinks I think others think I
> should want?
>
> :) Scott, a weird kid.
>
> --
> Scott R. Knitter
> Edgewater, Chicago, Illinois USA
>


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Scott R. Knitter
Edgewater, Chicago, Illinois USA