[Magdalen] prayer request

[Marion Thompson]

You're in my prayers, Molly.  I hope this situation can be resolved 
because you had sounded happy there.

Marion, a pilgrim


On 5/1/2016 9:33 PM, Molly Wolf wrote:
> Listlings,.
>
> I have a prayer request.  A bit of background first:
>
> As some of you know, I spent 21 years of my life with a guy -- my 
> sons' father -- who would explode at random.  If he took something the 
> wrong way (and he was quite creative about this) he might go into an 
> immediate huff, or scream abuse, or throw things, or hit me.  Or he 
> might sit on the affront (usually my inability to read his mind) and 
> then go  into a major snit or a fit of frothing rage days or weeks 
> later.  I wasn't the only person he did this to.
>
> The first parish I joined as an adult, after a long hiatus, was also a 
> place where people would go off into snits or rages at random.  It was 
> known as a priest-eater and is still a very, very sick puppy.  I got 
> bitten numerous times, once of them very seriously indeed. The place 
> needs to be fumigated with burning sulfur.
>
> So: I've "done" accepting abuse, lots of times. I recognize the 
> patterns when I see them, and I also recognize them physically, by 
> anxiety attacks and other psychological and behavioural signals as my 
> subconscious screeches to a halt
>
> During the month of April, I got bitten once again by someone (call 
> him X) who's got quite the reputation for turning on people when he 
> feels affronted, which is often and (again) random.  I was trying to 
> help him, and he took my actions amiss and turned nasty.  My rector 
> has discussed this with me and is quite clear that I am NOT the 
> problem here; Mr. X. is.
>
> But the pattern is identical to the one I've endured in the past. I am 
> normally quite a tough cookie, but I couldn't face going to church 
> this morning because I was walking-into-walls gut frightened. This is 
> discouraging because I was greatly enjoying my new church and starting 
> to flourish there (see new website) and now I'm backsliding into sloth 
> and fear.
>
> I have the sense that something needs to be done about this guy, and 
> that right smartly.  But in the meantime, please hold my hand as I 
> stick my thumb in my mouth.
>
> Thanking you kindly,
> Molly
>