[Magdalen] prayer request

[Susan Hagen]

Molly,
I know the scenario and the feelings too well.  I'll refrain from
analysis for now.  Here's a hand to hold and prayers for now.
Conversation to follow.
Susan

On Sun, May 1, 2016 at 9:33 PM, Molly Wolf <lupa at kos.net> wrote:
> Listlings,.
>
> I have a prayer request.  A bit of background first:
>
> As some of you know, I spent 21 years of my life with a guy -- my sons'
> father -- who would explode at random.  If he took something the wrong way
> (and he was quite creative about this) he might go into an immediate huff,
> or scream abuse, or throw things, or hit me.  Or he might sit on the affront
> (usually my inability to read his mind) and then go  into a major snit or a
> fit of frothing rage days or weeks later.  I wasn't the only person he did
> this to.
>
> The first parish I joined as an adult, after a long hiatus, was also a place
> where people would go off into snits or rages at random.  It was known as a
> priest-eater and is still a very, very sick puppy.  I got bitten numerous
> times, once of them very seriously indeed. The place needs to be fumigated
> with burning sulfur.
>
> So: I've "done" accepting abuse, lots of times. I recognize the patterns
> when I see them, and I also recognize them physically, by anxiety attacks
> and other psychological and behavioural signals as my subconscious screeches
> to a halt
>
> During the month of April, I got bitten once again by someone (call him X)
> who's got quite the reputation for turning on people when he feels
> affronted, which is often and (again) random.  I was trying to help him, and
> he took my actions amiss and turned nasty.  My rector has discussed this
> with me and is quite clear that I am NOT the problem here; Mr. X. is.
>
> But the pattern is identical to the one I've endured in the past. I am
> normally quite a tough cookie, but I couldn't face going to church this
> morning because I was walking-into-walls gut frightened. This is
> discouraging because I was greatly enjoying my new church and starting to
> flourish there (see new website) and now I'm backsliding into sloth and
> fear.
>
> I have the sense that something needs to be done about this guy, and that
> right smartly.  But in the meantime, please hold my hand as I stick my thumb
> in my mouth.
>
> Thanking you kindly,
> Molly



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The alien who resides with you shall be to you as the citizen among
you; you shall love the alien as yourself, for you were aliens in the
land of Egypt.
Leviticus 19:34