[Magdalen] As long as we're confessing stuff...

[Molly Wolf]

I think people believe that I need reassurance that I'm going to survive this bout with cancer, and I believe that too.  But I'm also nudging 68, and I'm aware that I'm on the downslope of life, although the timing and rate of descent are TBD.  As you age, some doors necessarily close, and right now I'm struggling with the knowledge of my own mortality, and also with very real and present worries about getting through the rest of radiation without becoming disabled by fatigue.  As it stands, I have trouble getting up the basement stairs, and the basement is where the washer and dryer are.  That sort of thing. So being told heartily that "my cousin had breast cancer when she was in her forties and twenty years later, she's fine" is not especially useful. 

Molly

The man who carries a cat by the tail learns something he can learn in no other way. -- Mark Twain

> On Apr 22, 2017, at 5:26 PM, Ginga Wilder <gingawilder at gmail.com> wrote:
> 
> Molly, let the guilting comments about bucking up, etc. fall on the floor
> in little piles.  Step over them on your way to lie down.  Are you getting
> enough nourishment?  Do you have assistance getting to radiation treatments
> and the grocery or pharmacy?  Ask your local priest bring a home eucharist
> to you...as regularly as you need.  Speak to yourself with deepest kindness
> and love.  Take exquisite care of you!
> 
> Love you,
> Ginga
> 
>> On Sat, Apr 22, 2017 at 5:02 PM, Louise Laughton <llaug2 at gmail.com> wrote:
>> 
>> To Molly: Why shouldn’t you give a worry, passing or otherwise, to your
>> long-term prospects? Seems a reality-oriented consideration to me, not at
>> all a matter of wallowing in a made-up problem from which one could “buck
>> up” and look on the bright side, etc. etc. As for the rest, please know
>> that I think of you — not that it can do much good, but you are in mind
>> often. (It’s cold and gloomy today in Syracuse, too.)