[Magdalen] Short-term prayers, please

[Jay Weigel]

What Heather says.

On Fri, Jul 31, 2015 at 2:37 PM, H Angus <hangus at ctcn.net> wrote:

> Dear Grace,
>
> I agree with what everyone has said, and I would also suggest that you
> consider attending Al-Anon meetings. That was where I learned how to refuse
> to be abused by out-of-control people, definitely including relatives.
>
> Heather
>
> ----- Original Message -----
> From: "Susan Hagen" <susanvhagen at gmail.com>
> To: "magdalen" <magdalen at herberthouse.org>
> Sent: Thursday, July 30, 2015 10:13:07 PM
> Subject: Re: [Magdalen] Short-term prayers, please
>
> Dear Grace,
> You have my prayers.  I know the pain of being in the blast radius of
> someone else's rage.  I think you've done all you can for now.  I pray that
> you will feel the love that all of us feel for you and always feel God's
> love.
>
> Susan
>
> On Wed, Jul 29, 2015 at 4:10 PM, Grace Cangialosi <gracecan at gmail.com>
> wrote:
>
> > Well, that's an idea, Molly, and there are a couple of people.  I had
> > thought of sending the original letter to my daughter and one other
> friend
> > to read, but decided against it and just deleted it.
> > This was what I just sent my son:
> > <https://us-mg5.mail.yahoo.com/neo/launch?.rand=1amvfrlmd5t4b#>
> > "Today at 3:51 PM
> >  I see that I have another note from you.  I haven't deleted it, but I'm
> > not ready to read it yet, either.  I'll let you know if/when I do. I
> > sometimes wonder if you have any idea how hurtful you can be. And then,
> > after awhile, it's like you forget all about it, and things sort of go
> back
> > to normal--until the next time."
> >
> > I think for now, not reading it is probably the best idea. And if you're
> > thinking there may be mental issues involved, you're right. But prayer
> will
> > take care of those; no need for medication! It's just sad all the way
> > around, and I do worry about the kids--six of their own and currently two
> > fosters.
> >
> > On Wed, Jul 29, 2015 at 3:55 PM, Molly Wolfmama <lupa at kos.net> wrote:
> >
> > > You've got my prayers, in spades.  What a horrible situation for you!
> Is
> > > there someone else who could read it in confidence and give you a
> précis?
> > >
> > > Hugs,
> > > Molly
> > >
> > > The man who carries a cat by the tail learns something he can learn in
> no
> > > other way. -- Mark Twain
> > >
> > > > On Jul 29, 2015, at 3:41 PM, Grace Cangialosi <gracecan at gmail.com>
> > > wrote:
> > > >
> > > > Without going into the very long, sad history, I'm asking your
> prayers
> > > for
> > > > what will probably seem like something totally insignificant.
> > > >
> > > > Periodically my son subjects me to verbal or written diatribes,
> > sometimes
> > > > cutting me off from seeing his children, sometimes not.  They always
> > seem
> > > > to come out of left field.  This time I had responded to an article
> he
> > > > forwarded to me, agreeing with much of it, which I thought would
> > surprise
> > > > him, and thinking it might be the opening for a real conversation.
> > > Instead,
> > > > I got back a long, long attack, really hateful and verbally abusive.
> I
> > > read
> > > > just enough to see what was there and then deleted it. Went back
> later
> > > and
> > > > emptied it from the trash, so I wouldn't be tempted to read the whole
> > > thing
> > > > and spend the next three days beating myself up and wondering what
> I've
> > > > done wrong. (Which, of course, I've been doing anyway...)
> > > >
> > > > Anyway--sorry this is so long--I carefully wrote a response, saying I
> > was
> > > > sorry that he had felt the need to respond that way, that I had
> deleted
> > > his
> > > > message without reading most of it, because I didn't need that verbal
> > > > abuse. ( I had seen that he was heading into a place I've seen
> > > > before...insisting that we are all depraved and evil at heart, but my
> > > pride
> > > > won't let me see that, even though Scripture is clear on that. There
> > was
> > > > something to the effect that I put on this show so that people will
> > > > think I'm a good person, etc.) I stopped reading there.
> > > >
> > > > I told him it saddens me that that's so much of his theology, that
> Paul
> > > > really needs to be read through the lens of the Gospels and Jesus'
> > > > reflection of God as a God of love. And also that God created the
> world
> > > and
> > > > saw that it was good. I ended by saying that I would continue to pray
> > > that
> > > > he will find that God of love and know that he is loved by God.  And
> > > after
> > > > much consideration, I went ahead and signed it Love, Mom.
> > > >
> > > > Now I see that I have a reply from him that starts out "I hope you
> > won't
> > > > delete this before reading it...,"  but I haven't opened it yet.  I'm
> > > > tempted to just write back and say that I haven't read it yet because
> > I'm
> > > > not ready to read it, but that I  haven't deleted it yet, either.
> > Maybe
> > > > that would be the way to go?
> > > >
> > > > I also thought about forwarding it to my daughter without reading it
> > and
> > > > asking her to tell me whether to read it or not, but that seems the
> > > > cowardly way to go.  She's aware of the situation, though I didn't
> > share
> > > > the other email with her. She pretty much keeps her distance from him
> > > most
> > > > of the time. Her take is that he finds it easier to take his anger
> out
> > on
> > > > me than to actually deal with the things he doesn't like about
> himself
> > > and
> > > > the choices he's made.  In my head I know that's probably true, and
> > > that's
> > > > what I would say to someone else in this situation, but it's hard not
> > to
> > > > get hooked by this when it happens.
> > > >
> > > > Anyway, what I need is some clarity about the "right" thing to do
> now.
> > > > Delete without reading? Tell him I still have it, but am not ready to
> > > read
> > > > it yet?  Just grit my teeth and read it? What I feel when I
> contemplate
> > > > that last alternative is fear about what I'll find...and that is, on
> > one
> > > > level, totally ridiculous, I know. Whatever is there is already
> there,
> > > > whether I read it or not.  And it couldn't possibly be any worse than
> > > > things I've already had to take from him. It's not the different
> ideas
> > I
> > > > have a problem with, it's the personal attacks. And I've really
> worked
> > > hard
> > > > over the years to keep the door open to relationships with the
> > children.
> > > > There have been two different times when he barred me from seeing
> them
> > > for
> > > > several months, but then it's like he kind of forgets, and they'll
> > invite
> > > > me to do something.  I don't know if my daughter-in-law is aware of
> all
> > > of
> > > > this, but I've never said anything to her. She has to do exactly what
> > he
> > > > says, and I don't need to add to her worries.
> > > >
> > > > Sorry...I really didn't mean to go on so long. But prayers for
> clarity
> > > > would be welcome.
> > > >
> > > > Grace
> > > >
> > > > --
> > > > Grace Cangialosi
> > > > Ruckersville, VA
> > > >
> > > > Keep Calm and Carry OM.
> > >
> >
> >
> >
> > --
> > Grace Cangialosi
> > Ruckersville, VA
> >
> > Keep Calm and Carry OM.
> >
>
>
>
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